With a fabulous way! The way who I am..

I am blessed with people around me. Sama ada yang datang dan pergi. Masing masing mengukir cerita tersendiri, dengan cara tersendiri. Pastinya yang indah sahaja akan ku kenang. 12 Jun 2007 sudah pun berlalu, pertama kali aku tidak 'looking forward' langsung untuk tarikh ini. Ternyata apabila kita tidak mengharapkan apa-apa, ia hadir dengan sendiri dan in a fabulous way. I just want to be happy in my birthday. So i got it!
Awal pagi aku menyakat orang, agaknya pengsan dia gelak guling-guling dengan kerenah aku. In a way, he's a gud friend of mine. Kadang-kadang tak faham jugak tapi kadang-kadang seronok jugak tengok lagak dia tu. Lagi orang berlagak, lagilah seronok aku mengusik. Haaahahaha... a gud way to cheer up my day.
Tengahari, went to 'old buddy' place untuk buat working paper. Dia memang terror bab working paper and tender preparation. Tajuk working paper buat masa ini adalah 'Taman Asuhan Kanak-kanak Qaseh'. Tetiba rasa nak reward diri sendiri sebab being a gud girl (in my own way) selama 30 tahun hidup di muka bumi. So, i went to my car dan cari baju yang sesuai untuk melaram. Naik balik ke ofis 'the old buddy' tu, aku pun mulalah berangan fabulous. Wearing dis dress always remind me to Reezal. He's the one who always ask me to bought anything nice yang dia nampak dan sesuai dengan aku. He's the one jugak yang selalu jadi bahan uji kaji aku, i paint his nail with watever colour i want until im satisfied. Dan aku selalu biar je dia nak buat apa-apa kat rambut aku in return. We used to cherish our life with our own things. He's the one jugak yang selalu dance with me, with him aku tak pernah rasa canggung di lantai dansa. But he's the only one can make me move, sebab aku tak pandai menari dan selalu malu untuk menari. Ahhh... dah merapu pasal Reezal pulak, sebelum tutup cerita Reezal; there is a hope for him - may his life be blessed in watever his doing. He's one of good creation from God for me. But he's no longer exist in my life, our friendship turn into sour after those missunderstood created by other people. But i know, one fine day he'll coming back to me as a gud friend.
Ok, stop about Reezal. Back to my little black dress. It make me feel good. So i put on my make up, do my hair a little bit better than usual. Found an earing, the chandelier they call it. Terpaksalah aku bukak rantai to make my earing stand out. Hahh... perasan. Jarang sekali aku memakai Paul & Joe perfume dan hari ini ia menjadi pilihan. So, i am ready. Say a proper good bye to 'my old buddy' sebab office hour dia pun dah nak habis, suami dia pun dah sampai to get her back after i spoilt her with my stupid jokes and a good laugh. We better not seeing each other very often, takut tertanggal rahang sebab gelak banyak sangat. A proper gud bye always bring the people you love back to you.
Turun dari Boulevard office, aku pun buatlah catwalk di Midvalley sensorang. Hahaha... best. Yeah, i need to reward myself with something new, but better dun spoilt myself with a things yang akan menyemakkan lagi closet aku. Lalu, ku pilih untuk membeli jam sebagai simbolik; semoga masaku akan lebih terurus. I need a gud time for myself and be alive. Tengah menunggu tali jam dipotong datang dua orang budak nak bergambar dengan 'Kak Nurul' Terpinga-pinga diaorang bila aku kata 'salah orang dik, akak bukan Kak Nurul. Tak cakap apa-apa terus diaorang blah. Hahahaha... lalu teruslah aku menunggu bak manequine kat Zara (sebab my little black dress tu from Zara).
With my new wacth in hand, aku memandu ke rumah Hann. Believe me, if you had nowhere to go, nothing to do and nobody to see - Hann's is the best choice. She knows how to cheer me up. Dia bagi very elegant red dress to me and ask me to pose. Dah kata perasan 'star' kan, apa lagi... beranganlah aku! There is a pose with a knife, I can feel the pain deep in my heart. As usual, Hann make me look god. Itu forte dia, berbicara bahasa lensa. The part with knife makes me feel sad, but never turn me down. Ada ketika kita harus dilukai, dicederai, dipinggirkan, ditolak ketepi untuk kita sedar siapa diri kita. Dan setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah. Setiap yang pergi pasti diganti dengan yang lebih baik. Walau tidak dalam 'title' yang sama, there is a person yang akan membawa bahagia tidak kira cara nan mana.
Later, Che Din join us. Sebab hari ni birthday aku, so I can ask them to pose with me. Yeah, we got the good one. The best moment has been captured.
After supper, we went back to Hann's. Che din put on The Secret dvd. Dan melangutlah aku depan tv sementara Hann pada mulanya sengih-sengih touch up gambar but kali kedua aku toleh dah settle. Si Che Din as usual, terlentok sana sini... siap tukar tempat ni tapi mata tak jugak bukak. Lalunya, aku ajak Che Din balik. Karang dia drive ke tempat lain puak. Bukan boleh percaya sangat dia tu. Aku? Apa lagi 'meracing' le balik ke sarang aku.
Berlalunya 12 Jun 2007, meninggalkan semangat baru pada aku. I want to start Qaseh as what I want for so long ago. Not only a start... I want Qaseh to bring me a gud money and gud life. Better life in future. I know I can do it well.
Akhirnya, no birthday song again and again for the whole day macam last year. Mungkin aku telah dilupakan. Too bad, not for me but for him. Hehehhee... sebab tak dapat dah nak menyumbangkan suaranya on my special day like today.
So, back to normal day... no more star or starbux or starfruits, whatever they call it. Need to be myself again, so i can move easily. I wish for a good start, for a better life, better heart and better person around me. Tuhan, jauhkan aku daripada mereka-mereka yang tidak tahu menghormati 'kata-kata' orang. Jangan temukan aku dengan mereka-mereka yang penuh negative energy. Bring back my life, my happiness dan semua orang yang kusayang, ku suka juga aku rindu. Ahahahaha....

A pink rose pic from Che Din on my birthday. Thank you darling!